Monday, June 25, 2012

feel | anger

Sometimes I get angry.  Like there are little things that bug me.  Like someone using the sharp edge of a serrated knife to scrape the chopping board.  Little things that are probably so inconsequential that if I had to explain it, I would cringe at how silly it actually is  (It did make sense in my head previously).

Then there are big things that get me mad.  I rant and rave and I'm sure I go on about it for a while.  There are probably some of you who are vigorously nodding you head at this point.

No matter how big or small, I find that the depth of the reaction it triggers in me can be quite staggering.

I could be having a really good day, lots of fun times with people I love and then something little doesn't go according to plan.  Well, that's it really.

It can totally change the way I'm feeling and I'm pretty sure I become irrational.

Listening to Rory's talk on Jonah 4 last night made me think more about my anger.  Is it often justified? I am sure if I chose to think about the last 5 times I got angry there would be layers of irrational thinking  through each situation.

Why do I get so emotionally attached that I feel like it's a life or death matter?  Why do I allow it to control me so?

I'm still pondering that.

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